Our New Whole Foods Supplement... Juice Plus+

I'm always on the lookout for high-quality supplements for my kiddos.  I have tried so many different things but I either have a hard time getting them to take them, or they will take them but the nutrients fall short.  Of course I would love if they would just eat the diet I know they need and didn't need any supplements, but well, we are still working on that one.  Then you add in that our produce now days, even when it is organic, falls very short on nutrients, and it becomes even harder to get your kiddos what they need.

After watching Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead, as well as Food Inc. and Food Matters on Netflix, I have been even more fired up about trying to build up our bodies with micronutrients and nutrient-dense foods.  We eat almost completely organic, buy local grass-fed beef and organic free-range chicken, eat only wild-caught fish, eat organic produce, limit sugars, starches, and refined carbs, and we don't eat many processed foods.  Because I can't get my kiddos to eat many vegetables and Madi won't eat fruits or veggies unless I chop them very, very tiny and hide them in her spaghetti, I always felt my kids were not getting what they needed.   I love juicing, and think that's a great way to get micronutrients, but I honestly hate cleaning the juicer, and don't don't juice as much as I should.  Even when I do, Madi and Ramya won't drink it, so that doesn't help them.

On the spina bifida groups I'm on people kept talking about Juice Plus and how it's helped them to keep UTIs away, stay out of the doctor's office, to be infection-free, etc....  The girls do great with not getting UTIs (thanks to cranberry extract and d-mannose), but I always worry about keeping Madi's immune system up so she doesn't come down with something and have a seizure.  I also try so hard to build up Ramya's  system since I am sure she is so depleted from years of inadequate nutrition.  Conner does pretty well and doesn't get sick often, but he's not a veggie eater for sure.  Poor David gets sick every time anyone around us does, and he always has a hard time kicking it.  I know he could use an immune system boost.  I almost never get sick, but with 3 kiddos, and 2 of those kiddos having disabilities, well, I just don't have time to be sick at all!   I decided to try it for our family and so far we are loving it!  Even Madi, who gags fruits and veggies and won't eat many different textures, will eat them and likes them.  They have a child's study they are conducting and if you participate, and purchase an adult juice plus, your child gets Juice Plus for free (you have to purchase an adult juice plus set, but then one child per adult gets their juice plus covered.  David and I each get the supplements so two kiddos get their supplements free and then we pay for the third child's supplements.  David LOVES that they have chewables for adults and talks about how much he loves them :)).

Just to be clear, I do NOT think Juice Plus should be a substitute for high-quality fruits and vegetables, and I'll keep chopping those veggies and hiding them, but it is a great supplement to help you get to where you should be.  David and I eat a lot of vegetables, but I think it's important for us too, as it helps fill in the gaps. 

If you would like to read the clinical research on Juice Plus you can go to....

http://jveprek.juiceplus.com/content/JuicePlus/en/clinical-research/juice-plus-clinical-research.html#.U_A-1s90ztQ

Here is a video about how Juice Plus is made...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?index=3&list=PLC3386EAEA57BA722&v=jzWHTGc9Wmc&app=desktop

And a great summary from Dr. Sears, whom I love...

http://www.askdrsears.com/topics/health-concerns/childhood-illnesses/benefits-of-juice-plus


I signed up to sell Juice Plus because I wanted to earn the money back on our own purchases (you do not get a discount if you sign up, but it's $50 a year and we earned that $50 back on our first purchase by signing up to sell it) so that I can use that money back towards our future purchase.  I can see our family using it long-term.  If you would like to try juice plus, please let me know!  Here's a link to our Juice Plus store...

http://jveprek.juiceplus.com       

I'll keep you updated at how we are liking it.  Please let me know if you have any questions :).



http://jveprek.juiceplus.com       

 

Our Kidney Answer

We went to see Dr. Zuniga, Madi and Ramya's urologist, today and got some answers about Madi's left kidney. 

(Just as a refresher, Madi was having an ultrasound done and the tech stopped about half way through, looked at me, and said, "so what's the story on her left kidney.".  Well, other than the fact that she has renal reflux and her left kidney is smaller than the right, I wasn't aware that there were any problems with her left kidney.  Our appointment with the urologist wasn't for a few weeks after the scan, so we waited to find out what was wrong)

Dr. Zuniga said that her left kidney hasn't grown at all this past year.  In fact, it may have gotten smaller.  Her scan from a year ago showed it was bigger than this years scan showed.  It could be due to an error in the scan that it is showing up smaller now, but either way, it still hasn't grown and that is an issue. 

Because Madi hasn't really had many UTIs, and hasn't had any that were symptomatic, he doesn't feel it is due to damage from that.  He thinks it's likely due to the fact that the renal reflux (she has grade 5) is keeping the blood from flowing correctly and her system from working correctly, and is basically keeping it from growing correctly.  We go in for another test tomorrow (urodynamics) and then will talk about surgery options to fix the reflux based on the outcome of the test, and possibly another test as well.  Dr. Zuniga said he may want to do a test where the inject radio-active material in through an IV (sigh) and then watch what happens when it gets to the kidneys.  This would tell us how her kidneys function, instead of just knowing the size of her kidneys.  There is always the chance that her little kidney functions really well, even though it's much smaller than it should be.  Or, it may be that her kidney hardly functions at all.  

As far as surgery goes, we have a few choices, but reflux surgery for a child with spina bifida is more complicated and there aren't any "easy" solutions.  The first option would be to go in and inject a bulking agent to try and bulk up the ureter and keep the urine from refluxing.  This is an out-patient, minimally invasive procedure, but it only has about a 40% chance of helping, at best.  It is, however, something worth trying.  The second option would be a vesicostomy.  This surgery would relieve the reflux and pressure to the bladder/kidneys, but is not a long-term solution.  Whenever it is closed up, there is a great chance the reflux will come back.  It's also not typically done with children Madi's age, due to the fact that it means the child will have to use a diaper, and they start moving towards "social continence" for children approaching school age.  For Madi, however, because she will be homeschooled, we don't have to worry as much about social continence and can focus more on doing whatever we need to get that kidney growing, so I do see this as an option for her.  The next option is one I don't love.  It would be the mitrofanoff surgery.  I am not against the surgery in general, and think it can be a great thing to bring freedom to kiddos and adults, however, it is a permanent surgery where many things are reconstructed.  If Madi were to have this surgery, it couldn't be undone.  That means if another, better, treatment option came available, she wouldn't be able to try it.  I would really prefer to wait to do this until she is older and could make that choice for herself.  With so much coming up on the horizon, in terms of medical advancements and new surgery options, I'd hate to make a permanent choice for her if it wasn't completely necessary.  If it was what had to be done to save her left kidney, though, then it is something I would obviously consider. 

Please be praying for David and I as we make some tough choices about how to help Madi.  It looks like she will have another surgery headed her way, and we are praying for clear direction on how to proceed and best help her.  We'll update everyone after our next set of testing and appointments.

 

An Update from Our Current Hospital Stay

As some of you know (from my Facebook posts), Madi and I are back at Phoenix Children's Hospital.  We are going on our second night here, though it looks like we will be sprung tomorrow... woooo hoooo!

 A view I'm thankful for, but could use a break from seeing ;)

 

 

 

On Wednesday we had a normal day.  Madi had a little dance recital and was glowing.  She did so great!  Conner had Karate and was given a red stripe on his white belt, and couldn't be more excited! We didn't know he was getting one and we are so proud of him!  Ramya had a good day and was enjoying watching Conner and Madi and being with family.  It was a wonderful day.... until dinner time came.  About half way through her dinner, Madi stopped eating and started looking a little ashen.  She started throwing up and told me her stomach hurt.  Madi throws up during eating fairly often, so it was nothing new to us.  She and Ramya were fighting over a little plastic bird earlier that evening, and Madi was crying and upset that Ramya wouldn't give her the little bird, so I figured the crying upset her little tummy and that was why she was throwing up.  She stopped throwing up, but looked like she didn't feel well.  She was talking to me normally, responding normally, but just didn't look quite right.  She also didn't want her brownie, so that tells you something was very wrong ;).  She started throwing up again, and just kept going.  At first she didn't want out of her special tomato chair (she was sitting and eating next to me), but she kept throwing up, so I took her out, sat on the floor with her (so that if she threw up, we were still on the tile), and held her.  I started noticing she was spacing out and looking off to the right.  I told David something didn't look right and told him to get her rescue med.  He went to get it, and by the time he got back, the repetitive twitching had started.  I gave her one dose, and she started to come back a bit, but still wasn't looking quite right.  We called 911 to have them come evaluate her.  They came and asked a bunch of questions, started assessing her, and then the seizing started again.  They watched her for a bit and were trying to get an IV in (thank God they were able to get it in her little foot.  I'm so thankful she doesn't feel it there so it can't hurt her!!).  I asked if I should give another dose of the rescue meds and they said yes, so I gave another.  She seemed to come out of it a bit, but she had never seized twice in a row before, had never seized other than coming in or out of sleep before,  and she had never not responded to the first dose of rescue meds before, so we loaded up in the ambulance to bring her in and have her evaluated.  On the way to the hospital, she started seizing again.  They gave her verset in her IV, and shortly after, she was completely knocked out, but wasn't seizing anymore.  Because we had just checked her shunt on Friday, they didn't feel the need to do xrays and a CT scan again, but neurology wanted us to stay for another EEG and observation, so they admitted us.

 

 

 



The only thing they can see that may have caused Wednesday nights events is that Madi's urine sample from Friday had grown e-coli.  This isn't surprising at all, since Madi is cathed 4 times a day and always has some bacteria in her system and e-coli is the most common and least concerning.  She also has renal reflux, which compounds everything.  She is on a prophylactic antibiotic because of it as well, to try and keep UTIs away.  Usually, the urologist only worries if she is showing signs of a UTI.  Her urine is clear, though, she's not throwing up unless she's seizing, she's had no fevers, I haven't seen her dumping white blood cells, there is no smell to her urine, her appetite is good, and she has no symptoms of a UTI.  With the culture that grew, though, the numbers were higher than they like to see, even with it being unsymptomatic.  They decided to treat the bacteria/UTI because if it is causing her seizure threshold to lower, then it's absolutely worth treating.  I'm praying that is what was causing her body to go haywire and that, once treated, the seizures will stop.   I told the neurologist that Madi had never seized during the day like that before, and never not responded to her medication like that before, and basically he said seizures can change and it's not unusual for things like this to happen.

Madi just got her second dose of IV antibiotics.  They want to observe her through tonight, but think we will be able to go home tomorrow.  They are upping her doses of daily and rescue seizure meds in hopes that the higher dose will help keep the seizures away as well.  She was on a very conservative dose, and still has some more room to increase if we need.

Conner and Ramya both cried when Madi and I left via ambulance again.  I feel sad that I have to be away from them.  Between the India trip, the extra doctor's appointments, and the trip in last Friday, it's just been a lot for them and their little hearts.  When I was talking to Ramya on the phone last night, she told me she was sad and wanted me to rock her.  I made sure to tell her that daddy is really good at rocking too :).  Today she and Conner came down to visit.  The hospital is still on RSV restrictions, so they couldn't come up, but David and I switched spots so I could spend some time with them.  It seemed to help (well, that and a pack of Scooby Do fruit snacks too ;)). 

I'm exhausted from about 3 hours of sleep last night, and I'm feeling a little sad and nervous about what happened on Wednesday night.  I'm trying to dwell on the positive, though, so I thought I'd post some things I am thankful for.

1) I am thankful for family who comes to help out.  For my mom who helped with Conner and Madi today, and then came down to the hospital to visit with us.  Also, for my sister-in-law who came to visit and brought Madi a cute little green tu-tu and green and pink monster stuffed animal.

 

Rockin' her green tu-tu!

 

 

2) For therapy dogs...

 

 

 

3) For the view from our room...

 

 

 

4) For Child Life and their help keeping Madi entertained and happy

 

Playing Candy Land

 

 

 

5) For reasonably priced food at the hospital that tastes pretty good too.  Also, of course, for the Starbucks here in the hospital!!  I didn't eat anything or get coffee until about 2pm, when my mom came with my wallet, so that Starbucks was like mana from  Heaven right about then :).

 

6)  For amazing doctors that care about Madi and make sure to come check in with us, even when they don't "have to".

 









7) That the paramedics now know exactly where our house is and don't get lost any more ;).

8) For good friends who love us, pray for us, and even brighten our day with little gifts.

 

 

9) For facetime and Yahoo Instant Messenger, helping us feel more connected, even during our times away.

 



10) For my faith and hope in God, because no matter how hard things feel, I know everything will be ok.  I may feel like things are out of control, but I rest assured knowing that God is always in control.

 

 



Tomorrow Ramya has a urology appointment at 1:00 at PCH for a urodynamics test and an appointment with the urologist.  The hospital said they will most likely be able to get us out in time for her appointment, so the plan is for my mom to bring Ramya down and for Madi and I to go right over with her.  It will be another busy day, but then we will be home again as a family, and most of Ramya's initial tests and appointments will be behind us for the time being.  That is sweet music to this tired momma's ears!

A Life Update... Urology, UTIs, Attachment, and More!

I have no good title for this post, because it's going to be a hodgepodge of updates :).

First off, I talked to the urologist and because Madi is non-symptomatic for a UTI, he doesn't want to treat her.  I have learned over the years that you don't start antibiotics unless the urologist thinks you need to. Doctors and hospitals look for signs of infection often times without taking cathing, and the bacteria introduced there, in to account. There have been numerous times we were told to treat her UTI and then her urologist reviewed the results and said not to.  I figured as much, which is why I didn't fill the antibiotic prescription the hospital gave us when we are in on Friday after the seizure/headache/projectile vomiting from Madi. And on that topic, I really, honestly, just believe her getting better was a miracle.  Once when Madi was a baby, we'd gone through heck with her shunt.  We had an infection just a few weeks after we were out from the hospital that landed us back in the hospital for almost 3 weeks.  That cleared and the new shunt clogged.  That was another 3 day stay for them to revise it.  About two weeks later, Madi was showing signs of shunt failure again.  I took her in, Dr. Moss checked her shunt, and he said that it was definitely not working again and would need to be revised again.  We spent the night and Madi went NPO for surgery in the morning.  The morning came and revision time came, but when Dr. Moss checked her shunt (as he always does before surgery), it was working again, so we got to go home.  I really think that's what happened this time too.  Madi was so very miserable.  She had the seizure, she didn't want to open her eyes, she kept holding her head saying it hurt, she was projectile vomiting, and she kept drifting in and out.  Right before the CT scan, it was as if a light switch was thrown.  All of a sudden, she was her normal happy self.  It was crazy!  I really believe God cleared that shunt for us!


Today we headed back down to Phoenix Children's Hospital.  We were there twice last week (once for each girl) and will be there twice this week (for Ramya).  We are nearing the end of the testing she will need done (for now) and I can't wait!  PCH is an amazing hospital, and we are very thankful for the care they have given our girls, but I am growing weary of the 30-40 minute drive a few times a week, and the number of hours we spend there.  Today Ramya had a VCUG to check and see if Ramya still has renal reflux.  The good news is that it does not look like she does!  YES!  That means the surgery (well, half-surgery ;)) she had in India was not a complete waste.  It did correct her renal reflux.  That is awesome!  The test also showed that she did not have the augmentation surgery when they did her mitrofanoff surgery, which is a bummer.  If Ramya is going to be "socially continent", it's a surgery she will need.  It's not a fun one, and it is usually done with the mitrofanoff surgery, so it's too bad that it will mean another surgery.  Boo.  I am very thankful that when and if the time comes for that surgery, though, that I will be able to be with her and make sure she is comfortable and well cared for.  That is something worth celebrating for sure.  My little girl will never go through surgery alone again!


On Friday, Ramya and I head back to PCH for a urodynamics test that will give us a better picture of how much fluid Ramya's bladder can hold, if it is rigid or spastic, and how quickly it leaks.  After the test, we will see the urologist to go over our recent testing and get a better picture of what we need to do.  We know she may need the augmentation surgery, we need to deal with her granulation tissue on her belly button that is driving her nuts, and that the MACE procedure she had done in India isn't looking right (placed right) and needs to looked reviewed as well.

Attachment is chugging along.  I still hold Ramya quite a bit, though much less than in the beginning.  She still prefers to sit on my lap and have me feed her, so thatly is something we do most of the time.  She also still prefers to be rocked to sleep and sleep in our bed, so that's what we do!  I have been tired lately (and seriously need to go to bed now) and haven't been as cheerful and full of life with the kiddos lately and I need to get myself caught back up on sleep.  Thank God for coffee!

Ramya's time-ins and times where she just gets in a funky and can't get out of it have been decreasing, which is nice, though they can still be pretty intense.  Yesterday we had a melt-down that lead to a time-in.  She was very upset and yelling at me and told me "me no like you, momma!!".  I wasn't sure if I should laugh or cry.  I told her I'm sorry she feels like that, but I still love her very much.  She wasn't too fond of that answer, but it's the truth :).  I know she was just upset at me for enforcing rules she didn't want to follow, and I know that she does enjoy spending time with me, but it still made my heart a bit sad to hear those words.

Ramya's English is getting better.  She is understanding more and more every day and is expressing herself more and more.  She has just discovered a love for salad and asks for "tiny bites" of mine all the time.  She still loves eating beans and meat, and could eat them all day long!  She's also discovered a love for peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, which is really nice since it's a snack I can easily bring when we are on the go.


 I'll be back later to update with Easter pictures. All the kiddos loved Easter.  Conner told me that in Church he learned that Easter isn't about eggs and candy.  It's about Jesus dying on the cross for us because he loves us so much.  He talked a little about what exactly that meant too.   I was quite proud of him for expressing what he learned (we had talked about it at home as well, but I wasn't sure if anything sunk in), though he still woofed down the candy and was giddy about the egg hunt ;).  Madi loved the hunt but wanted nothing to do with any of the candy.  Ramya loved the hunt, loved the boiled eggs, and thinks the purple jelly beans are pretty nice as well. 


I think I about covered it all for now!  I'll be back with photos and more urology updates soon!
 

Seizures, Sickies, A Mini Hospital Stay, X-Rays, CT-Scans, Orthopedic Surgeons, OH MY! Oh Wait! Did I Mention Maybe a UTI?

Whew.

I know, that's quite the title for this blog post, but it's been quite a few crazy days!

Where to start???

Wednesday we went out for our "big" shopping trip.  We found out Madi is sensitive to peanuts, almonds, eggs, corn, and wheat (likely dairy too, but she didn't have enough in her system for it to show up).  We knew about gluten and dairy, but the rest are new (and were tested because of her big egg fiasco).  We had to re-do the pantry, again, to make it allergen-friendly for her.  That meant sunflower nut butter (instead of almond or peanut), coconut milk (instead of almond), rice noodles (instead of quinoa/corn blend), etc...  I was also very low on groceries as we've just been kind of sliding by with our shopping and needed to stock up.  That was a $300 shopping trip right there.  Whew.  Yes.  $300.  I've never spent that kind of money in a grocery store, ever.  It was insane.  We were blessed with a sprouts gift card by two amazing friends the week before, and let me tell you, it was very much appreciated!  It helped a lot with that trip.  It was such a blessing (thank you friends (you know who you are), we love you guys!!) to have!!

I got a call from a friend as we were leaving the grocery store.  She needed to take her husband in to the hospital for heart failure (Thank God he is doing ok now.  It looks as though a virus settled in to his heart and was causing issues, but is resolving).  I ran by to grab her two kiddos and brought them back to our house.  Next, my friends moving to India the next day came by for dinner.  It was a crazy last dinner with them, as there were 7 kiddos at that point in time (my 3, their 2, and my friend's 2), but we enjoyed seeing them one last time before they left for India.  I got my 3 ready for bed and laid them down with David and sat with/rocked the 2 we were watching so that they would rest and be happy until their momma could make it home. They are sweet kiddos and did a great job while their mom was away.  I dropped them off at around 11:30, got home around 12:45 (we chatted a bit), then crashed in to bed.

Thursday I woke up and got Conner, Ramya, and Madi ready for a doctor's appointment we had at 10:00 am.  Ramya was seeing Dr. Segal, our orthopedic surgeon, for a check-up and to get a prescription for leg braces.  I got the three of them pottied, fed, dressed, and in the car, and we headed for Phoenix Children's Hospital (PCH).  We checked in, waited, got in the room, waited a bit more, then saw Dr. Segal.  He is a wonderful doctor and we really love him.  He heard clicking in Ramya's left hip and set us for x-rays.  Conner and Madi couldn't go in the x-ray room, so I took Ramya in while the secretary played with Conner and Madi.  She made them glove-balloons and they drew faces on them.  They had a blast!  We got back to the room and by then everyone was getting ansy.  We waited a bit more for the doctor to come back, and he walked in to a room of monkeys when he did!  He gave Conner a game on his phone, sat Madi on his lap so she could scribble all over his notes, and finished his exam (like I said, he's an amazing doctor!).  We were finally finished at about 12:45 pm.  Dr. Segal wrote us a prescription for occupational therapy, physical therapy, speech therapy (just in case), and KAFOs (leg braces that go up to the thighs).  He thinks Ramya will be a functional walker, and is hopeful we can go down to just AFOs (ankle braces) in the future.  He did say, though, that her left hip is likely out and will need surgery.  The x-ray showed that the front of the hip was mostly in, but it seemed the back of the hip was not.  We'll need more x-rays in the future to better asses this.  Madi's right hip is out, but he doesn't want to operate as she is a part-time walker.  Because he sees Ramya walking more, though, and causing more strain to that joint, he thinks she will need surgery.  Sigh.  He thankfully wants to wait until she's been here longer and is better adjusted, so at least that is good news.  At this point, we had missed Madi's occupational therapy, so we just went to the cafeteria to eat and relax.  The second we pull up in the parking lot all the kids get excited (even Ramya now), becuase they know PCH has scooby doo fruit snacks full of all kinds of nasty junk that mom wouldn't normally let them have.  It's the one time they get them, and they all love them, so we never leave the hospital without them.  Hey, if you have to go to the hospital for appointments all the time, there has to be a little perk, right?!?!?!?

Ramya's photo of Madi's glove balloon....

 

 



This morning Madi woke up early at 7:05.  She was throwing up and dry heaving, but was responding and seeming ok other than that.  She wasn't stopping the dry heaving, though, and then started staring off and getting slow to respond.  My heart skipped a beat.  Then I noticed her lower half started convulsing in a rhythmic pattern.  I woke David up, got her rescue meds, and gave her those (at about 7:20).  Madi's seizures don't self-resolve and just continue to get more involved, so they have to be stopped ASAP with a rescue med.  The problem, though, is that it's sometimes hard to tell if it's a seizure or just regular old sickies.  She normally falls asleep right after I give the meds, but this time she didn't.  She was agitated and kept telling me she needed to pee.  She finally fell asleep, but woke up very unhappy (which is not like her).  She kept saying her head hurt.  She'd hold it and just cry.  It broke my heart.  She started projectile vomiting, too.  She was lethargic and would wake up for a bit, sleep for a bit, but was just hurting and not happy whenever she was awake.  She's never complained of a headache before, and she's never acted like that after a seizure before, so we were worried about her shunt.  We decided to take her in to PCH.  Because they are on RSV restrictions still, my mom drove so I could sit next to Madi, and David stayed with Conner and Ramya.  Poor Conner was crying and upset at me leaving, and I felt awful leaving Ramya when we are still working on attachment so much.  Thankfully David was there for them, but it was not fun.  Madi projectile vomited in the car on the way again and was still saying her head hurt.  We got checked in at PCH and then the ordred a CT-scan and x-ray series.  I also told them they probably wanted to check her urine and did a clean cath sample for them.  We waited quite a bit (such is hospital life) and then it was time to go get the scans.  Right about then, Madi perked up and started acting like her normal self.  We went for the scans and then waited for the doctor to come talk to us.  While we waited we chatted with Conner and Ramya on facetime.  They were relieved to see us!  After we chatted for a bit, the doctor came in and told us her scans all came back fine.  He didn't think it was shunt related (Thank God!  I know it's crazy to wish a sickness on your kiddo, but I always pray she is "just sick" and it's not shunt related, because shunt issues equal surgery!).  He did, however, see a lot of white blood cells in her urine, indicating she likely has a UTI.  They couldn't get ahold of urology to check her sample, so they sent me home with a prescription for antibiotics and with instructions to fill it if urology felt it was necessary (I will call Dr. Zuniga on Monday and have him check it all out).  The doctor said the UTI could be to blame for all of the symptoms we saw that day.  I don't think it was related to the headache and vomiting.  I think that was likely due to the rescue meds.  I suppose you never know, though.  I do know if she has a UTI that would lower her seizure threshold, so that could help explain the seizure.  Madi acted like her normal happy self once we were home.  Conner and Ramya were thrilled to see us and Ramya would not let me put her down the rest of the day.  David said she cried and asked for me a few times while I was gone.  This made me feel very sad, but at the same time, I'm glad she is missing me.  I would think it would mean she's at least partially attached to me if she is sad I'm gone.  I'm glad she's now gotten to see, though, that momma comes back.  I'm also thankful she was able to be with David, as I'm sure that helped their bonding.

Sleeping angel on momma...

 

 



We finally got dinner (takeout... I hadn't had breakfast or lunch, and had finally gotten half a sandwich in the late afternoon but was still very hungry!) and got all the kids in bed, and then Madi puked again.  It was a lot.  It went on me, on the pillow, and on the bed, so we changed all of the sheets and the waterproof mattress cover, and I changed my clothes.  We got all the kids back in bed and settled again, and then finally off to sleep.  I'm beat, so I am headed to bed as well.  The house is a mess.  Their are dishes in the sink.  I need a shower.  But for right now, I don't care.  Sleep is going to come first.  I am VERY thankful that Madi's shunt looks good and that we were able to come home today.  God is really watching over my little gal!

I pray everyone has a blessed night and gets lots of rest (me included)!!!

 

Back in the Hospital

Well, yesterday sure didn't turn out like I thought it would.  I had put Madi down for a nap and was making some calls.  I turned on the baby monitor and shortly after I heard Madi on it.  I thought she had started waking up so I went in to lay by her and put her back to sleep.  She kept fussing and I noticed she was jerking funny and her eyes were making funny movements.  That's when it clicked that she was having a seizure.  I called 911, who transferred me to a different unit.  They dispatched the paramedics and stayed on the line with me.  I was holding Madi against me in my arms and she just kept seizing, and then she threw up on me.  I had her sideways in my arms, so she didn't choke luckily, but I felt so bad for her.

Apparently the paramedics got lost or something, so it took them 17 minutes to get to us.  Poor Madi was seizing the entire time, and continued to until they gave her a shot that stopped it.  That 20 minutes was probably the longest 20 minutes of my entire life.  I did the only thing I could, I tried to keep myself together, held her and talked to her, and wiped her down with a wet washcloth.  After they got Madi stable, they loaded us in the ambulance and headed for Phoenix Children's Hospital.  She slept most of the way, then woke up a bit confused. 

The first thing they checked was her shunt, since shunt failure can cause seizures.  The cat scan and shunt series all came back normal.  After that they checked her blood and her urine.  Her urine came back that she had a yucky UTI (though she wasn't presenting with a fever or smelly urine, or any indication yet.  We did, though, have a hard time getting her prophylactic antibiotics filled (long story) so she was without antibiotics for a couple days over the weekend).  They were trying to figure out what could have caused the seizure, and such a long one at that, so I let them know Madi had the MMR vaccination on Monday (for India travel).  It was her first MMR shot, so I was worried it may be that.  I was expecting them to say it couldn't be, but so far everyone has agreed that the vaccine could be the cause.  It could also be, though, that a combo of the of the vaccination, the UTI, etc.... could have all worked together to contribute to it.  The admitted us and scheduled an EEG for the morning.  They also started Madi on a stronger antibiotic.  It took a while to get a room and get settled, and of course they bugged us all night, but it was nice to be out of the ER! 

This morning when we got up they took us down for the EEG.  It's now 3:00 and I'm just hearing back on the news from that.  Basically, Madi has some abnormalities in her brain, AKA, some misfirings.  They still really don't know what caused the seizure, but it seems like she does have an underlying tendency towards seizures, so that may have complicated things.  They said she could never have another one again, or she could have one every few years, or it could be something that starts happening often and that we will need to be seen and monitored for.  At this point, no one really knows.  She also developed a fever after the seizure, but didn't have one before, and now it's back up. Her heart rate is still up, though, so they are watching that to see what happens with that. 

Earlier they were saying they were keeping us overnight, but now they are saying that they might be letting us go home.  They are sending us home with something to treat the UTI and also something for me to give her rectally to stop the seizures if she is having them and they are lasting longer than 5 minutes. 

So, that's that.  Not fun, but it's life, and we all made it out safely, thank God.  A big "thank you" to everyone who has been praying for us and letting us know you are here and care.  It means a lot!

My little mystery man....

We got in the preliminary report from Sonora Quest and have a few questions answered, which leaves us with even more to ask.

Based on the preliminary reports, Conner does not have a UTI or diabetes.

The doctor is still waiting to hear back to see if his urine culture grows, and is also waiting on a white blood cell count to come in.

He is stumped and thinks we need to go to the urologist to have ultrasounds done to see if there is any abnormal swelling, blockage, bits and pieces growing oddly,  growths causing pressure, etc..... He does not think it is allergies, though he is open to testing again if we want to go that route.

Conner has shown no improvement, so that's disappointing.  I put him in a diaper tonight so he could just relax and sleep.  I know I'll kick myself for this later on, but the poor little guy is exhausted from not sleeping well and getting up multiple times a night to pee.  I wasn't sure what else try.  He just needs sleep.

I have noticed that if I give him a lot to drink, he pees often and a decent amount.  If I don't give him much to drink, he still thinks he needs to pee often, it's just that not is much coming out.  That worries me.  It makes me think there is something causing pressure to his system, which is making him think he has to pee, even when he doesn't. 

Honestly, I was hoping they would say he had a UTI and just wasn't showing symptoms.  I know that sounds silly, but that would have given us answers, as well as something easily treatable.

I do not think it is behavioral because he is having to pee during his favorite activities (watching a movie as a family, reading his favorite book, playing baseball out back, etc....), and the peeing is really bothering him emotionally.  I really think something is causing it.  I'm just not sure what.

Tomorrow I will call and get a referral to the urologist.  I also plan to call and try and talk to the urologist, as he knows us well. 

I will keep everyone updated.  Thanks for your prayers, and don't stop yet! 

Send your prayers our way today

Today we went in to take another urine sample.  Though the urine was clear, they found that there is still bacteria growing.  They also found traces of blood, though they said that could have been from the cathing.  We are waiting to hear back on what the culture shows and talk to the doctor.  This was not the results we were praying for.  We are hoping this doesn't mean hospital time, though there is a very good chance it does.  We will keep you updated when we find out more, but in the meantime, please keep us in your prayers.  Thank you!

It's been a rough week

This week has been a rough week with Madi. To start with, a few weeks ago my grandmother passed away and though we were expecting it, it's always hard to loose someone you love. Shortly after, an 'internet friend's' (someone I met on the internet) baby passed away. She was 9 days old and had spina bifida. She died during a routine surgery to insert a shunt. I met her mother when she contacted me through Madi's blog. She had a sister with spina bifida that died in her 30's after having a bladder-related surgery. The surgery went well but she got an infection that shut down her organs. Now, she was having a baby that would be born with spina bifida. She found my blog and contacted me to ask me some questions about what she should expect. She is a wonderful person and I enjoyed chatting with her as she waited for her angel to be born. This his pretty close to home and is pretty much my worst fear come true. Please keep her family in your prayers.

So at this point in time, I'm a bit emotional because of all of this, which is pretty unlike me (No, I'm not pregnant. If I am, we have a urologist to talk to....), which has not made this week any easier. The fact that this is a terribly busy week, with four doctor's appointments, three therapy sessions, practice for the women's tea at Church, a play, and the women's tea itself, hasn't helped much either.

On Monday we went to Saint Joseph's hospital for some routine tests for Madi. She needed a renal ultrasound and VCUG to see how her bladder and kidneys were functioning. I have been waiting for this VCUG for a long time. Madi has renal reflux where the urine travels back from her bladder in to her urethra on the left had side. It was never severe, only a level 2, and we were hopeful she would outgrow it. In fact, I have been praying very hard that she would. Along with the reflux comes an increased chance of urinary tract infections, and, because of that, they want kids on antibiotics as long as it is happening, and at least for the first year of life. Though I do believe antibiotics are necessary in some cases, I really did not want Madi on them for an entire year. After talking to a naturopathic doctor, we started her on D-Mannose with the hope that it would help. It did wonders...... until I forgot it on vacation and forgot to give it to her when we got back :(. Back to my story.... we went in for the VCUG and I was fully convinced that it would have resolved itself and would no longer be an issue. Unfortunately this was not the case. Not only does Madi still have the reflux, it's actually worse. Not good. To top it all off, her urine was cloudy when they cathed her and sure enough, she has a nasty UTI. It was in the beginning stages so she wasn't showing signs yet. Because of her decreased level of sensitivity she does not fully know something is wrong, which is a blessing and curse all in one. I am thankful it is not painful for her, but it's really hard when she cannot tell me something is wrong with her because she does not know herself. The urologist, Dr. Zuniga, is sending us for another test in a few weeks after her UTI clears up. This test should tell us if her bladder is spasming or not, as well as how much urine it can hold. Depending on the outcome of this test, we may have to start cathing her multiple times a day. To someone with a child who has spina bifida, I know this is no big surprise and no big deal, it is something you do on a daily basis. For me, though, it's heartbreaking. Since before Madi was born my biggest prayer has always been for her bladder to work well enough to not need to be cathed. It's not the cathing in itself but more what it means; more surgeries and more medications (I hoping to get in to a naturopathic urologist so we can bypass most or all of these). First they will want to put her on an antibiotic so she does not get an infection. Then comes the medication to try and increase the amount of urine her bladder will hold. After that we have the medication to keep her dry in between cathing. When she gets older, though, if she does not out grow the reflux, there is a surgery for that. If she does, but we are still cathing, there are surgery options so she can self-cath easier. The more surgeries she has, the more risk she is at for complications, which can always mean one day I do not get to bring my baby home with me. I know I may be jumping ahead of myself, since we do not yet know for sure if she will need to be cathed, but at this point it is a very, very good possibility.

I know that God is in control and I know that He has a plan. I know that I am so fortunate to have my angel here on earth with me. I know whatever is coming our way, we can handle, because He will not give us more than we can. I am trying so hard to remember that right now and not be discouraged. Please keep us all in your prayers, we would not be where we are without them!!


For anyone else who feels discouraged, this is one verse that I call to memory when times are rough:

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."