A medical update for Ramya and Madi

Earlier this week, I took Ramya in to see a general surgeon about the MACE surgery she had done in India.  Dr. Zuniga, our urologist, wanted to see if Dr. Bae (the general surgeon) could get it working, or if he even thought we needed to.  Dr. Bae reviewed her files and the MACE site and said he believes that the MACE isn't really usable. Normally the MACE would go in at the very beginning of the colon so that you could flush the entire length of colon.  Ramya's was put in at the very end of the colon, though, which doesn't really help her much.  If we decide to try and do surgery on her bowels to help her empty them, she will need a cecostomy tube.  He reviewed some of her past x-rays and said that, while she is not distended or impacted, she does have a lot of stool throughout her entire colon.  If that is her "normal", then he thinks she will likely need the cecostomy.  My goal this month is to clean her out and try to keep her cleaned out so that we can see if we think it is necessary for her to have a cecostomy tube inserted or not.  If she does, we would wait until we do her bladder surgery and do it all at once.  I'm trying not to be bummed about all of these wasted surgeries from India, but it is so hard.  Her MACE isn't usable, her mitrofanoff isn't usable, and they did a bladder neck tightening that isn't helping at all.  I hate that I couldn't be there advocating for her, but I am so thankful that I am now!!

Madi went in to Dr. Zuniga, our urologist, today.  He said her vesicostomy is working well, but it is swollen more than he thinks it should be, so we have an appointment in two weeks to go back and have it checked out again.  Other than the swelling, he is pleased with how it is all working.  Yeah! 

I have been thinking about Madi's kidneys lately and am just so thankful that her right kidney is big and strong and is taking over for her left kidney.  God is so so good and I am SO thankful for His protection of my beautiful girl! 

A Kidney Update

I forgot to update on the blog yesterday, but WE ARE HOME!!!  We spent last night in our own bed, and it felt wonderful!  Wooo hoooo!  I slept from 8pm until 6 am straight, which is a lot of sleep for me.  Here's a little update, then on to the kidney news :).

Monday night was not a fun night.  They couldn't get her tube to drain, though it was draining around it well, like Dr. Zuniga said it likely would.  Starting at about 1 a.m., they kept coming in about every 30 minutes trying to get the tube (that was draining the vesicostomy site) to work.  They kept trying to flush it, thinking it was clogged.  It was hard to sleep with them coming in and out, but we got some sleep here and there.  Dr. Zuniga came in at 6:30 a.m., checked her vesicostomy, and saw that the tube was out, which is why it wasn't draining.  He said he was going to take it out anyway and so he wasn't concerned at all. 

We had two different tests that needed to be done, and they were scheduled for 3:00 and 3:30.  The first test was to check her kidney function and the second was a swallow study.  We hung out, did crafts, visited with friends, then we went off to the studies.  The swallow study went well and we saw that Madi is not aspirating on her food, which is great!  It also doesn't seem to be getting stuck in any little pockets in her throat or anything, so that is great news.  She coughs quite a bit when she eats, and it's reassuring to know that it's not anything too problematic.  We went back to our room and were discharged about an hour later, getting us home at about 5:30.  Our friends Ryan and Leslie brought us a very yummy dinner and it was great to rest and eat a yummy meal as a family!

This morning I got a call from Dr. Zuniga, our urologist (I say "our" since every one of my kids has seen him; even Conner!).  He wanted to check on Madi, we chatted a bit about Ramya and her urinary stuff, and then he checked Madi's kidney scan so he could give me the results from that.  Her left kidney should be functioning at about 30%.  The results of the scan said 1.5%, but he said you really can't even measure that low, so it's likely some where between 1.5 and 6%.  So, basically her left kidney isn't really working at all.  My heart sank a tiny bit when I heard that, but then came the good news.  Her right kidney doesn't look like a typical kidney of a child with spina bifida (which is often times smaller, shaped differently, etc....).  Her right kidney is actually larger than normal for a child her age, but it's a good thing!  It functions super well, and makes up for the lack of her left kidney function.  He said her blood labs showed completely normal kidney function and that you would never know her left kidney doesn't function, because her right functions so well to compensate.  I asked what that meant in the long-run, and he said as long as her right kidney stays healthy, which it should, that she shouldn't ever need a transplant or dialysis or anything because it functions so well.  He compared it to what he sees with kiddos born with only one kidney.  He did say, though, that if the kidney doesn't grow/start functioning better with her having a vesicostomy, we may want to think about removing it.  He said since it's not really doing anything anyway, but still runs the risk of getting an infection, if we are in there for another surgery anyway, we may want to remove it and then not have to worry about it getting an infection or have to worry about the reflux that was on that side.  I'll have to research that a bit more but we don't have to worry about that right now anyhow. 

Madi is healing pretty well.  She had some pain this morning but felt better when I gave her some medicine.  She also has some pain when I change her diaper, but other than that, as long as she is sitting or laying and resting, she doesn't hurt too much any more.  I'm so glad!  She really is such a trooper and such a sweet little girl!

Thank you so much for all of your prayers for my little gal.  We really appreciate you!

Surgery Scheduled and Mysteries Solved

Whew, what a week!  I have so much to catch everyone up on! 

First off, I found a grey hair today.  Ah!

Ok, ok, that's not very big news.  At 32, I guess I can expect to find a few grey hairs here and there.  I wasn't very happy, though!

Now for the real news....

On Saturday, Dr. Zuniga, our urologist, gave me a call about Madi and upcoming surgery.  We talked through some questions I had, and we chatted for quite a while.  I always appreciate a doctor who will call you on the weekends and not rush you; it speaks volumes about the kind of doctor they are.  Basically, before I completely commited to surgery for Madi, I wanted to make sure there was no way around it.  I talked to him about a few different procedures and medication and whether or not they would work for her.  He really thinks, for her situation, the vesicostomy or augmentation are what she needs.  He is very conservative with surgeries, so I know that if he is recommending it, it is really needed.  We opted for the vesicostomy for now.  I scheduled her surgery this week for July 1st (Monday).  We will likely only be in the hospital one night, but we shall see.  We will also get her dye study while we are already in the hospital with an IV in place.  I need to order some cloth trainers, but want to see the positioning of the vesicostomy first.  I'm thinking custom waterproof trainers with a "t" absorbency and a high waist-band.  Now to find someone to make them for us without charging a million dollars.....

On Monday PCH called us to schedule Ramya's dye study, and wanted us in that day, so we headed down.  I know I already blogged about the dye study, so I won't repeat that part.  The doctor called me to talk about the study on Wednesday, and answered some of our mysteries for us.  He said he wasn't worried about the urine getting in to the vaginal cavity.  Apparently it's pretty common and not a big deal. Whew!  Sounded crazy and scary to me, so I'm glad he's not worried.  Sadly, the tubing for Ramya's mitroffanof is just all wrong.  He really thinks it's not fixable.  He said he thinks we are going to have to go in and re-do it all :(.  I'm trying so hard not to be angry, but this is the surgery I asked them not to do on her, but couldn't stop because our adoption wasn't finalized yet, so she wasn't officially ours.  She went through all of that for nothing, sat there alone in pain for nothing, because it's all wrong.  Grrrrr....  The momma bear in me wants to fly to India and yell at someone really badly.  I suppose it's not all for nothing, as it did fix her renal reflux, so I am actually thankful for that.  He also thinks she will need the augmentation surgery, and would do both at the same time, but I don't think I'm ready to do something so big, so I think we will wait a bit, as long as he feels it is safe to do so.  He also wants us to see a general surgeon about her MACE surgery that isn't working correctly, so we head there in a few weeks.  The good news is that he feels we can try to take her off of her prophylactic antibiotic.  We are going to try just our more natural methods and see if it's enough to keep UTIs away.  I'll have to do a seperate post one day about all of the natural supplements we use with the girls.  Anyhow, she is officially off of her antibiotic for now... wooo hooo!

We also saw our naturopathic doctor this week, Dr. Vitaro.  We love Dr. Vitaro and I'm glad, after over 4 months of having Ramya home, we were finally able to get in and see him.  Conner informed Dr. Vitaro that he is like a naturopathic doctor, because he tells me to put on my amber necklace for headaches, instead of using Tylenol.  He thinks he may want to be a naturopathic doctor when he grows up.  He's not sure, though, if he wants to do that, be a karate man, or be a stock or bond trader.  Such big decisions ;).  Dr. Vitaro thinks that thyroid testing for Ramya may be a good idea, because of her early breast development (but normal hormone levels) and lack of weight gain over these 4 months.  I had to drop off some paperwork to the pediatrician so I wrote him a note about this and we'll see what he says.  Dr. V also told me how to try and get the wax out of Ramya's ears (the drops the pediatrician told me to get weren't working), so that's my next adventure with her.

Next week we have two plays we are going to, a few play dates, and some doctor's appointments.  Madi also gets a feeding therapy evaluation to make sure that her pickiness is pickiness and not a feeding/muscle issue.  Hopefully we will get some answers there.  That's all for now; please keep our little Madi in your prayers as we prepare for her surgery.  The doctor says it's a simple one, so we are praying for no complications and a fast recovery!

Our Kidney Answer

We went to see Dr. Zuniga, Madi and Ramya's urologist, today and got some answers about Madi's left kidney. 

(Just as a refresher, Madi was having an ultrasound done and the tech stopped about half way through, looked at me, and said, "so what's the story on her left kidney.".  Well, other than the fact that she has renal reflux and her left kidney is smaller than the right, I wasn't aware that there were any problems with her left kidney.  Our appointment with the urologist wasn't for a few weeks after the scan, so we waited to find out what was wrong)

Dr. Zuniga said that her left kidney hasn't grown at all this past year.  In fact, it may have gotten smaller.  Her scan from a year ago showed it was bigger than this years scan showed.  It could be due to an error in the scan that it is showing up smaller now, but either way, it still hasn't grown and that is an issue. 

Because Madi hasn't really had many UTIs, and hasn't had any that were symptomatic, he doesn't feel it is due to damage from that.  He thinks it's likely due to the fact that the renal reflux (she has grade 5) is keeping the blood from flowing correctly and her system from working correctly, and is basically keeping it from growing correctly.  We go in for another test tomorrow (urodynamics) and then will talk about surgery options to fix the reflux based on the outcome of the test, and possibly another test as well.  Dr. Zuniga said he may want to do a test where the inject radio-active material in through an IV (sigh) and then watch what happens when it gets to the kidneys.  This would tell us how her kidneys function, instead of just knowing the size of her kidneys.  There is always the chance that her little kidney functions really well, even though it's much smaller than it should be.  Or, it may be that her kidney hardly functions at all.  

As far as surgery goes, we have a few choices, but reflux surgery for a child with spina bifida is more complicated and there aren't any "easy" solutions.  The first option would be to go in and inject a bulking agent to try and bulk up the ureter and keep the urine from refluxing.  This is an out-patient, minimally invasive procedure, but it only has about a 40% chance of helping, at best.  It is, however, something worth trying.  The second option would be a vesicostomy.  This surgery would relieve the reflux and pressure to the bladder/kidneys, but is not a long-term solution.  Whenever it is closed up, there is a great chance the reflux will come back.  It's also not typically done with children Madi's age, due to the fact that it means the child will have to use a diaper, and they start moving towards "social continence" for children approaching school age.  For Madi, however, because she will be homeschooled, we don't have to worry as much about social continence and can focus more on doing whatever we need to get that kidney growing, so I do see this as an option for her.  The next option is one I don't love.  It would be the mitrofanoff surgery.  I am not against the surgery in general, and think it can be a great thing to bring freedom to kiddos and adults, however, it is a permanent surgery where many things are reconstructed.  If Madi were to have this surgery, it couldn't be undone.  That means if another, better, treatment option came available, she wouldn't be able to try it.  I would really prefer to wait to do this until she is older and could make that choice for herself.  With so much coming up on the horizon, in terms of medical advancements and new surgery options, I'd hate to make a permanent choice for her if it wasn't completely necessary.  If it was what had to be done to save her left kidney, though, then it is something I would obviously consider. 

Please be praying for David and I as we make some tough choices about how to help Madi.  It looks like she will have another surgery headed her way, and we are praying for clear direction on how to proceed and best help her.  We'll update everyone after our next set of testing and appointments.

 

Seizures, Sickies, A Mini Hospital Stay, X-Rays, CT-Scans, Orthopedic Surgeons, OH MY! Oh Wait! Did I Mention Maybe a UTI?

Whew.

I know, that's quite the title for this blog post, but it's been quite a few crazy days!

Where to start???

Wednesday we went out for our "big" shopping trip.  We found out Madi is sensitive to peanuts, almonds, eggs, corn, and wheat (likely dairy too, but she didn't have enough in her system for it to show up).  We knew about gluten and dairy, but the rest are new (and were tested because of her big egg fiasco).  We had to re-do the pantry, again, to make it allergen-friendly for her.  That meant sunflower nut butter (instead of almond or peanut), coconut milk (instead of almond), rice noodles (instead of quinoa/corn blend), etc...  I was also very low on groceries as we've just been kind of sliding by with our shopping and needed to stock up.  That was a $300 shopping trip right there.  Whew.  Yes.  $300.  I've never spent that kind of money in a grocery store, ever.  It was insane.  We were blessed with a sprouts gift card by two amazing friends the week before, and let me tell you, it was very much appreciated!  It helped a lot with that trip.  It was such a blessing (thank you friends (you know who you are), we love you guys!!) to have!!

I got a call from a friend as we were leaving the grocery store.  She needed to take her husband in to the hospital for heart failure (Thank God he is doing ok now.  It looks as though a virus settled in to his heart and was causing issues, but is resolving).  I ran by to grab her two kiddos and brought them back to our house.  Next, my friends moving to India the next day came by for dinner.  It was a crazy last dinner with them, as there were 7 kiddos at that point in time (my 3, their 2, and my friend's 2), but we enjoyed seeing them one last time before they left for India.  I got my 3 ready for bed and laid them down with David and sat with/rocked the 2 we were watching so that they would rest and be happy until their momma could make it home. They are sweet kiddos and did a great job while their mom was away.  I dropped them off at around 11:30, got home around 12:45 (we chatted a bit), then crashed in to bed.

Thursday I woke up and got Conner, Ramya, and Madi ready for a doctor's appointment we had at 10:00 am.  Ramya was seeing Dr. Segal, our orthopedic surgeon, for a check-up and to get a prescription for leg braces.  I got the three of them pottied, fed, dressed, and in the car, and we headed for Phoenix Children's Hospital (PCH).  We checked in, waited, got in the room, waited a bit more, then saw Dr. Segal.  He is a wonderful doctor and we really love him.  He heard clicking in Ramya's left hip and set us for x-rays.  Conner and Madi couldn't go in the x-ray room, so I took Ramya in while the secretary played with Conner and Madi.  She made them glove-balloons and they drew faces on them.  They had a blast!  We got back to the room and by then everyone was getting ansy.  We waited a bit more for the doctor to come back, and he walked in to a room of monkeys when he did!  He gave Conner a game on his phone, sat Madi on his lap so she could scribble all over his notes, and finished his exam (like I said, he's an amazing doctor!).  We were finally finished at about 12:45 pm.  Dr. Segal wrote us a prescription for occupational therapy, physical therapy, speech therapy (just in case), and KAFOs (leg braces that go up to the thighs).  He thinks Ramya will be a functional walker, and is hopeful we can go down to just AFOs (ankle braces) in the future.  He did say, though, that her left hip is likely out and will need surgery.  The x-ray showed that the front of the hip was mostly in, but it seemed the back of the hip was not.  We'll need more x-rays in the future to better asses this.  Madi's right hip is out, but he doesn't want to operate as she is a part-time walker.  Because he sees Ramya walking more, though, and causing more strain to that joint, he thinks she will need surgery.  Sigh.  He thankfully wants to wait until she's been here longer and is better adjusted, so at least that is good news.  At this point, we had missed Madi's occupational therapy, so we just went to the cafeteria to eat and relax.  The second we pull up in the parking lot all the kids get excited (even Ramya now), becuase they know PCH has scooby doo fruit snacks full of all kinds of nasty junk that mom wouldn't normally let them have.  It's the one time they get them, and they all love them, so we never leave the hospital without them.  Hey, if you have to go to the hospital for appointments all the time, there has to be a little perk, right?!?!?!?

Ramya's photo of Madi's glove balloon....

 

 



This morning Madi woke up early at 7:05.  She was throwing up and dry heaving, but was responding and seeming ok other than that.  She wasn't stopping the dry heaving, though, and then started staring off and getting slow to respond.  My heart skipped a beat.  Then I noticed her lower half started convulsing in a rhythmic pattern.  I woke David up, got her rescue meds, and gave her those (at about 7:20).  Madi's seizures don't self-resolve and just continue to get more involved, so they have to be stopped ASAP with a rescue med.  The problem, though, is that it's sometimes hard to tell if it's a seizure or just regular old sickies.  She normally falls asleep right after I give the meds, but this time she didn't.  She was agitated and kept telling me she needed to pee.  She finally fell asleep, but woke up very unhappy (which is not like her).  She kept saying her head hurt.  She'd hold it and just cry.  It broke my heart.  She started projectile vomiting, too.  She was lethargic and would wake up for a bit, sleep for a bit, but was just hurting and not happy whenever she was awake.  She's never complained of a headache before, and she's never acted like that after a seizure before, so we were worried about her shunt.  We decided to take her in to PCH.  Because they are on RSV restrictions still, my mom drove so I could sit next to Madi, and David stayed with Conner and Ramya.  Poor Conner was crying and upset at me leaving, and I felt awful leaving Ramya when we are still working on attachment so much.  Thankfully David was there for them, but it was not fun.  Madi projectile vomited in the car on the way again and was still saying her head hurt.  We got checked in at PCH and then the ordred a CT-scan and x-ray series.  I also told them they probably wanted to check her urine and did a clean cath sample for them.  We waited quite a bit (such is hospital life) and then it was time to go get the scans.  Right about then, Madi perked up and started acting like her normal self.  We went for the scans and then waited for the doctor to come talk to us.  While we waited we chatted with Conner and Ramya on facetime.  They were relieved to see us!  After we chatted for a bit, the doctor came in and told us her scans all came back fine.  He didn't think it was shunt related (Thank God!  I know it's crazy to wish a sickness on your kiddo, but I always pray she is "just sick" and it's not shunt related, because shunt issues equal surgery!).  He did, however, see a lot of white blood cells in her urine, indicating she likely has a UTI.  They couldn't get ahold of urology to check her sample, so they sent me home with a prescription for antibiotics and with instructions to fill it if urology felt it was necessary (I will call Dr. Zuniga on Monday and have him check it all out).  The doctor said the UTI could be to blame for all of the symptoms we saw that day.  I don't think it was related to the headache and vomiting.  I think that was likely due to the rescue meds.  I suppose you never know, though.  I do know if she has a UTI that would lower her seizure threshold, so that could help explain the seizure.  Madi acted like her normal happy self once we were home.  Conner and Ramya were thrilled to see us and Ramya would not let me put her down the rest of the day.  David said she cried and asked for me a few times while I was gone.  This made me feel very sad, but at the same time, I'm glad she is missing me.  I would think it would mean she's at least partially attached to me if she is sad I'm gone.  I'm glad she's now gotten to see, though, that momma comes back.  I'm also thankful she was able to be with David, as I'm sure that helped their bonding.

Sleeping angel on momma...

 

 



We finally got dinner (takeout... I hadn't had breakfast or lunch, and had finally gotten half a sandwich in the late afternoon but was still very hungry!) and got all the kids in bed, and then Madi puked again.  It was a lot.  It went on me, on the pillow, and on the bed, so we changed all of the sheets and the waterproof mattress cover, and I changed my clothes.  We got all the kids back in bed and settled again, and then finally off to sleep.  I'm beat, so I am headed to bed as well.  The house is a mess.  Their are dishes in the sink.  I need a shower.  But for right now, I don't care.  Sleep is going to come first.  I am VERY thankful that Madi's shunt looks good and that we were able to come home today.  God is really watching over my little gal!

I pray everyone has a blessed night and gets lots of rest (me included)!!!

 

An update from the Urology world

We saw Madi's urologist, Dr. Zuniga, on Wednesday at CRS.  He said everything looked good but the ultrasound was showing that one of her kidneys had shrunk.  She has a level 5 renal reflux on her left side, and that was the side showing a smaller kidney.  He said at this point he is not worried.  It is very rare to see a child that has not had any UTIs (she had one but that was over a year ago before the cathing) with kidney shrinkage.  He said most likely the difference is due to ultrasound tech error where one of the techs just measured wrong.  Either this tech measured it smaller than it is, or the last tech measured it larger than it really was.  He did say, though, that when we check it in 6 months, if it is still measuring smaller, we might want to try mixing dithropan with saline and injecting it straight into her bladder after cathing to see if we can help it grow normally.  I don't really like that idea, but we shall see.  He also said that the amount of liquid her bladder is holding isn't what it should be, but for her it is good and he is happy with the results.  The good news is he wants to wait before we do surgery.  He said that the standard protocol for renal reflux in kiddos with spina bifida used to be to correct the reflux, just as you wold with a kiddo without spina bifida.  He said the problem with that, though, is that you usually end up having another procedure down the line anyway (one to increase the size of the kidneys) and that surgery usually corrects the reflux anyway.  I love that he is a "wait and see" doctor, but that means we have to keep her on prophylactic antibiotics :(.  I HATE giving her antibiotics like that. I mean I seriously HATE it.  I feel terrible every time I give them to her.  I give her a very strong probiotic in the morning to help, but it does not make me feel much better.  I know they are needed because we have to protect her kidneys, but I worry about it all the time.  What if she ends up with pneumonia or something huge, and we cannot fight it because of an antibiotic resistance?  I know questioning the future and worrying about eveverything will not help, so I am choosing to remain positive and hope for the best.  She is in God's hands.  We would really appreciate your prayers, though!  Please pray that Madi's kidneys continue to grow.  Pray also that the reflux goes away on it's own.  Thanks so much!

It's been a rough week

This week has been a rough week with Madi. To start with, a few weeks ago my grandmother passed away and though we were expecting it, it's always hard to loose someone you love. Shortly after, an 'internet friend's' (someone I met on the internet) baby passed away. She was 9 days old and had spina bifida. She died during a routine surgery to insert a shunt. I met her mother when she contacted me through Madi's blog. She had a sister with spina bifida that died in her 30's after having a bladder-related surgery. The surgery went well but she got an infection that shut down her organs. Now, she was having a baby that would be born with spina bifida. She found my blog and contacted me to ask me some questions about what she should expect. She is a wonderful person and I enjoyed chatting with her as she waited for her angel to be born. This his pretty close to home and is pretty much my worst fear come true. Please keep her family in your prayers.

So at this point in time, I'm a bit emotional because of all of this, which is pretty unlike me (No, I'm not pregnant. If I am, we have a urologist to talk to....), which has not made this week any easier. The fact that this is a terribly busy week, with four doctor's appointments, three therapy sessions, practice for the women's tea at Church, a play, and the women's tea itself, hasn't helped much either.

On Monday we went to Saint Joseph's hospital for some routine tests for Madi. She needed a renal ultrasound and VCUG to see how her bladder and kidneys were functioning. I have been waiting for this VCUG for a long time. Madi has renal reflux where the urine travels back from her bladder in to her urethra on the left had side. It was never severe, only a level 2, and we were hopeful she would outgrow it. In fact, I have been praying very hard that she would. Along with the reflux comes an increased chance of urinary tract infections, and, because of that, they want kids on antibiotics as long as it is happening, and at least for the first year of life. Though I do believe antibiotics are necessary in some cases, I really did not want Madi on them for an entire year. After talking to a naturopathic doctor, we started her on D-Mannose with the hope that it would help. It did wonders...... until I forgot it on vacation and forgot to give it to her when we got back :(. Back to my story.... we went in for the VCUG and I was fully convinced that it would have resolved itself and would no longer be an issue. Unfortunately this was not the case. Not only does Madi still have the reflux, it's actually worse. Not good. To top it all off, her urine was cloudy when they cathed her and sure enough, she has a nasty UTI. It was in the beginning stages so she wasn't showing signs yet. Because of her decreased level of sensitivity she does not fully know something is wrong, which is a blessing and curse all in one. I am thankful it is not painful for her, but it's really hard when she cannot tell me something is wrong with her because she does not know herself. The urologist, Dr. Zuniga, is sending us for another test in a few weeks after her UTI clears up. This test should tell us if her bladder is spasming or not, as well as how much urine it can hold. Depending on the outcome of this test, we may have to start cathing her multiple times a day. To someone with a child who has spina bifida, I know this is no big surprise and no big deal, it is something you do on a daily basis. For me, though, it's heartbreaking. Since before Madi was born my biggest prayer has always been for her bladder to work well enough to not need to be cathed. It's not the cathing in itself but more what it means; more surgeries and more medications (I hoping to get in to a naturopathic urologist so we can bypass most or all of these). First they will want to put her on an antibiotic so she does not get an infection. Then comes the medication to try and increase the amount of urine her bladder will hold. After that we have the medication to keep her dry in between cathing. When she gets older, though, if she does not out grow the reflux, there is a surgery for that. If she does, but we are still cathing, there are surgery options so she can self-cath easier. The more surgeries she has, the more risk she is at for complications, which can always mean one day I do not get to bring my baby home with me. I know I may be jumping ahead of myself, since we do not yet know for sure if she will need to be cathed, but at this point it is a very, very good possibility.

I know that God is in control and I know that He has a plan. I know that I am so fortunate to have my angel here on earth with me. I know whatever is coming our way, we can handle, because He will not give us more than we can. I am trying so hard to remember that right now and not be discouraged. Please keep us all in your prayers, we would not be where we are without them!!


For anyone else who feels discouraged, this is one verse that I call to memory when times are rough:

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."